OK, I evolved a bit. My art HAS improved, I say so because I can do stuff I couldn't a year ago. A proof that I'm not a total tool. In theory, I must've got a little closer to THEIR level, they I mean art-freaks, kind of people who create stuff we amateurs can only dream about. Honestly, things that made me feel "Wow! I wish I could do that" a year ago now I feel "Hmm, I can probably do that with enough time."
I'm not being arrogant, it's just a confirmation I'm making it to myself that I am resourceful when it comes to things I wanna learn SERIOUSLY, I learn stuff and I enjoy doing that and I want to make some improvement that can be me